30/9/2026: u came home from school alone for the first time, and u werent allowed. i was dancing its me by illit when all of a sudden, i hear u knock on the front door, thought it was mom, but before i can open that door u knock on my window and ure crying and i think its cus u rly need to pee, so i open the door and ure like crying a lot and im like whats wrong whats wrong, n u say mom n dad forgot u..... mom had left to pick u up, but u were so impatient after having been given free earlier today, and u assumed cus they werent there early that they forgot u? mom said she came to the school 2 minutes after ur class ends and she was so mad, she called me n asked if u were there n i said yes n she told me to give u the phone and said u were gonna get a punishment (u havent been allowed to use ur ipad all day, but u did at one point so ure also not allowed tmrw she said). anyways, that was all.
22/9/2026: you asked me if i wanted to be a singer n i said yes... i was kinda shy about it. i wonder if u find me uncool cus im the same age as katseye but havent achieved it yet? and then you told me you couldnt decide between being a painter, a youtuber or a dancer and i said u should be it all.
16/9/2026: found u styling urself and ur fit isnt bad at all???? girl, i want u to style me wth
13/9/2026: wow havent written in here for 2 weeks. anyways, i wanted to write some days ago that u made a roblox account on ur phone and followed urself, and to make it look like u dont follow urself to ppl online u played on both accounts at the same time... lmfao. and youre relaly obsessed with looking at peoples follower counts cus u wanna meet a youtuber, and you just found a girl on dti with 1k subs on youtube and you got rly excited to be in the same server as her. ure so cute for that, kinda borderline weird about it but its wtv, ure only 9
24/8/2026: you made slime using moms shampoo again n put it in the freezer on top of my glass
21/8/2026: lol you just told me you made 3 new accounts or something and followed urself on roblox cus u wanted more followers... now ure at 10
15/8/2026: you're upset cus u didnt get to play with kat on roblox cus she's livestreaming rn, u went into the other room to cry.... sorry lol
30/7/2026: im so lucky to have you. you keep saying you love me, you keep saying im cute and just see me as a child in a way? i hope so. and you rely on me obvi cus im ur big sister. u trust me and u follow me around, to know i have someone so little and cute loving me this much, that a child can see beauty in me to this extent, makes me incredibly happy and lucky. lol, like so often you'll tell me you'll be my servant cus u wanna help me n i never ask for it or need it n tell u no and u say why not ??? like u just told me 20 min ago and i said no n u said u were bored, so i said u should clean ur stuff. and u keep calling me a diva and a queen and it makes me rly happy. honestly, u might not see me as ur best friend but i see u as mine. im so lucky to have you. otherwise i wouldve been the most lonely girl in the world. cus ure also a dreamer and it makes me happy. i keep telling myself i have to achieve my dreams, i must, cus i dont want u to see me fail. i dont want u to see me as sad. the reason i put dumbbells in front of my door is either cus im working out n dont want u to come in, or cus im crying n dont want u to see. i never want u to see me cry, cus i know it'll upset u so much. even tho i could use a hug from u or mom the most when im rly sad, i dont wanna upset u. n honestly, sometimes i also just wanna tell u how scared i am, cus what if i dont achieve my dreams? what if u end up seeing ur sister heartbroken forever cus she couldnt do it. and i know i shouldnt doubt, i know i am faith, i know i have given it to god and just need to work from abundance. but is it ever possible to get rid of fear 100%? prob not. to feel one thing means the existence of another. like waves, things go up n down.
ps: i was lit just playing dti on ur ipad like 20 min ago and now im crying n being all deep n what not lol. but yeah. im scared of the day u become a teenager, cus what if u dont wanna hang out with me anymore n find me uncool, or get tired of me? n thats fair and all, ill never judge u for that, but ive never had a sister before and idk how this bond stays strong and grows more n more forever? cus our brothers r tired of me, or they dont like me. idk. they dont ever talk to me unless they need smth. anyways, that was a very emotional and long rant.
edit: u just came to my room to show me ur squishies you've put wet paper on n put in the freezer and asked me to squish and rate them.
25/7/2026: we were just sitting on the couch eating snacks at night, mom n dad there too, and i got 1st place in dti master server on ur ipad, and i told u and u were like "ok" cus u were bored until u remembered i wasnt in a regular server but the master one and u freaked out and got rly happy!!! and stared at my face rly closely which u like to do when u think im cute or u get rly happy. ANYWAYS HEEEHEEEEEEE, n i asked u if u've ever gotten 1st in master n u said no so now i feel extra talented. mhmm! the theme was reality tv lol??? i dont even watch it but i just thought drink in hand, phone in the other, big hair, pink + handbag, n i won. im so happy cus u got rly happy :p :PPPPPPP
21/7/2026:yesterday was ur first time to legoland and u puked in the car (and on my hand) right as we arrived there. u were clearly embarrassed n i felt sorry for u. poor thing ;-;. we tried the canoo, went to the ghost house (freaking ass), atlantis and the minifigure speed thing but u didnt do that one
16/7/2026: you keep saying ure the queen of water and ice, and that im the queen of fire and the sun <3 best compliment ever
7/7/2026: i made ur youtube channel today <3 i had a name idea in my head in case u didnt have one, and told u to say what u wanted to name it first and u said liva diva, which is exactly what i had in mind too :D so cute. created the 7/7. i waited on a cool date on purpose lol (and i was stressed af w music), u kept begging me for days. i asked u if u still wanted me to make a channel too n u said yeah so ill make one now too
28/6/2026: i asked u where ur dream country was to live and u said japan and kurdistan
21/6/2026: you have been playing with this little yellow moth for 4 hours or something, we found it inside sitting on the kurdish flag and you said it was a girl named Lili. you've been so sad since it died, u were crying so much :( been comforting u
19/6/2026: i havent written in here in a while cus i was so busy and just not feeling that well, so let me catch up. two boys from school bully u and ur friends, mom confronted one of them by grabbing his arm and taking him to the teacher. thats one thing. today u told me u thought hailey and justin bieber were siblings cus they had the same last name, n i taught u about how thats what ppl sometimes do when they get married and you said u hope u never change ur last name. and now we tried to do a special handsign and its kinda ass but its cuuuute, a bit. and youve been bothering me cus u dont want me to stop playing with u. and u said anna mcnulty is ur 2nd favorite youtuber and youve gotten really interested in gymnastics, well u always kindaaa were but since i showed u that i could do the split and that i learnt it from her, youve been biiiiinge watching her videos. oh and u told me today that it makes u sad when i have short nails, cus i broke like 3 of them... me too sis, i hate how they look rn
24/5/2026: i should write here more but i often like the thought of not documenting every thing yknow.. anyways u text all of us a loooot on ur ipad. we cleaned outside some hours ago. oh and u tried to sell candy yesterday and today u tried to take donations from mom and dad and put dirt on ur face to look like a poor child???
12/5/2026: you're playing with your friend outside on ur ipads, eating snacks. i forgot to write what you gave me for my birthday - birthday cake lipbalm, 2 hairclips, maltesers, gum in a roll (bc u had seen me eat a bit of yours once) and some small trinkets of yours.. love u
5/5/2026: you figured out how to send texts on your ipad, u sent me a video that said "im lucky to have a sister like you". so cuuuuuute!
26/4/2026: you've given me 3 squishes u've made out of paper, two dumplings (one pink one rainbow) and a kinder surprise squishy... its so cute ugh
15/4/2026: youre apparently growing one nail to be long because it makes you happy, and you told mom you wanted to keep it as a memory when you cut it (a memory of having long nails i guess?). mom said its cus i have long nails and u rly want some similar to me, and when i asked you why you were growing one long nail you got rly shy and said you forgot to cut it lol
11/4/2026: you got your first bike today :)
10/4/2026: aw you wore the kuromi shirt i bought u for xmas and u love it, someone complimented you in the store. which btw, u told mom u wanted to buy a bike in that store but u actually wanted stickers that your friend had. and i found my old roblox account just for you today since youve been asking and askiiiiiing. followed you cus u wanted more followers, your bio is so cute on there btw: "I'm a fan of lanarae ✌(๑˃ᴗ<๑)✌ my name is --- and my dream to be a YouTuber ♥️♥️😊or be in a video" so cute.
6/4/2026: you just told me your dream is to be the biggest youtuber and you really wanted to release videos of you playing, and i convinced mom to let you as long as you dont use your real name or have your face on youtube. i might help you later in the week or smth, im too busy rn but youve been talking about youtube and wanting to be popular for so long
4/4/2026: you're rly excited about the dti japan release. and you said i look 15-16 years old.
3/4/2026: mom told me you had a dream about me where i saved you, i took a vacuum and threw it at a bull, and apparently you woke up crying and couldnt even tell the story :((( aw
29/3/2026: you wanted to set a password on your netflix account cus our brother keeps changing it into silly names that piss u off, so u changed it the first time to 1234 and u apparently thought it was a really good password mom said, and U asked him to guess it - obviously he guessed it. then u wanted to change it again and you closed your eyes and clicked on a bunch of random numbers and i couldnt believe you, i asked u if you knew the code and u said no, so thank god u could delete the code without having to enter it in, otherwise ur account would've been gone. and no u werent allowed a 3rd code lmfao
24/3/2026: aww u said u wanted to be as tall as me when ure big
23/3/2026: you cleaned out your clothes and got 4 bags out, i know exactly what ur style is; you like modern cute trendy things, keyword "teenager" lmfao, its so cute cus i forgot how small kids looked up to teenagers. you dont like skinny jeans, you dont want colorful prints on your shirt unless if its a trendy thing like hello kitty or smth.
21/3/2026: you tried to scam mom into buying you 4000 robux, you told her it didnt make sense to buy 1700 and that the only good deal was the 4k one.... i caught u tho, u got the one for 1.7k lmao. it was honestly funny cus u def didnt know what to do with all that robux when i kept asking u why it was so important.
16/3/2026: mom bought you new clothes, we were looking through it and you said "wow, i've got youtube clothes" cus you think it's cool modern clothing lmao, you said it was gonna make you popular... it was sooo cute. then you showed me your reference, the youtuber sugarstar (??? if i remember right) and you said your shirt looked better (so sassy). plus, mom also bought you a unicorn shirt and you said "eeeej" n told me you're over unicorns, that they're for small kids and you want modern cool clothes.
3/3/2026:you had bought a matcha boba tea pack and i made you one today, it tasted rly rly sweet. im not rly into the taste but you seemed to like it :) you picked matcha bc it's a popular flavor you said
28/2/2026: you went out shopping w mom today and bought ur first blush from gosh in shade amour, apparently you were trying all the testers and enjoying it a lot. you're 10 times more girly than i was at that age, its rly fun
24/2/2026: mom told me you talked about ur friend using lipstick as a blush, and you wanted a real blush from the more expensive store bc they had the good stuff, not the drug store that mom recommended. and mom was shocked that you even knew anything about good and bad quality makeup at 9 lol?? im so impressed
7/2/2026: it's mom's bday and u found a bracelet that was already hers for idk, a couple of years, and u gave it to her as a present. she found it funny but ure serious about it which makes it even crazier, u actually told me the gift was that you had found it for her..... when u hadnt, it wasnt even lost lol
31/1/2026: you're sick and i felt sorry for u so i downloaded u 4 games :) im trying to do it sparingly so u dont get more brainrot.....
28/1/2026: cant stop laughing, ure sitting on the toilet rn and you've been yelling "im on the toilet!" for mom to come clean u but she's busy. its been like 10 minutes its so funny
16/1/2026: apparently u told mom how u could get rid of ur back hair cus u thought it was weird, n mom said it was so cute how u asked cus u were shy about it, but u were rly embarrassed when mom wanted to tell me lmao
1/1/2026: tonight we celebrated nye (obvi), you hated the string spray thingy (forgot the name) but you'd spray it all on me and complain and cry anytime u got it on you from anyone... you wore an icecream hat and have eaten a lot of lychees. u said its the new years fruit. i miss 2016 so much, 10 years ago, as you'd know ofc?? it was such a good year. the music was fire back then, the vibes too. its 1am rn and you went to my room with your wallet to buy stuff, i gave u a pack of beard stickers for free and youre going around walking w an accent and its just great.
25/12/2025: forgot to write it in yesterday, but you seemed to really love your gift... not that im shocked but you've never hugged me so tight over any gift i've given you that def were more expensive, but you really loved this one with the sanrio shirts, candy and makeup :)
13/12/2025: you're in your phase of wanting to make lipbalms lmao
4/12/2025: annooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooyiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnnnggggggggggggggggggggg
1/12/2025: you were the first to pick out a gift today at school :) u were rly happy. u got colored kinetic sand and chocolate coins.
24/11/2025: you're having ur first friend over rn, i can hear yall giggling so high pitched and cute!! makes me wanna cry.
23/11/2025: you're so cute - i found u eating hot and spicy pringles and u neeeeever like to even try spicy food, u hate it and avoided even eating onion chips yesterday cus u thought it was spicy (???) and today i found u eating spicy pringles....
so i ask u why, and u said: "our cousin she's 11 and she could eat spicy nuts, so i have to be able to eat spicy food when i'm 11."
..... sooooo CUTE!!! and u kept taking sips of water between every bite lol
19/11/2025: what you want for christmas:
- hello kitty clothes
- hello kitty makeup
- a keyboard
- candy box that mom got you at some point (no idea what candy u mean specifically)
31/10/2025:got you ready for your first trick or treating ever. you're going with your class and you're a vampire princess, i put blood around ur mouth and it looks so realistic, and i did ur nails a halloween theme.
edit: u came back happy with so much candy - and u gave me a piece, i didnt even ask, ure so cute.
21/10/2025: you wrote a text message to ur friends mom that you're going to ur friends bday party, and you insisted that you had to write it, and you wrote it so well, we're all shocked. i think you took the hard words and looked at the bday invitation and copied after that? but for a 9 yo its good, some kids arent smart enough to think that far ahead
3/10/2025: IT'S UR BIRTHDAY TODAY. 9. i forgot to write it in the last entry, but i bought you a book so im not giving you money. i'm trying not to spoil you too much. it's midnight right now, we made little candy bags for your class earlier, and you were so excited about it.
later: the sun was shining on your birthday, you really wanted that. you're so cute, you got a lot of robux, luigi game, perfume, a lot of money from mom and dad, candy, book, and a labubu. you dressed up in an all white long dress, you really looked like bloody mary or some sort of royal ghost lmao
21/9/2025: you're wishing for a labubu, money, chocolate and sanrio jewelry for your bday.
a) i got the labubu
b) i got a perfume you kept smelling to at the store, something with a cupcake juicy couture? idk
c) i'm getting you money.
i got u sanrio jewelry once and u lost it, i aint buying that shit again, and the chocolate mom can just buy. but i wanna get you more, idk what tho. i was thinking maybe an iq challenging game, u kinda need it.. later: u came to me and said u wanted a phone number? girl? ure 8.
12/8/2025: so cute, u got ur front hair pieces dyed pink today. personally....... i think the stylist couldve done a better pink but u love it so im not gonna say that to ur face obvi. edit later: you just called me from mom's phone for the first time on ur own without telling her, u are so proud its adoraaable. also, u said the pink looked close to red so i dont think u love it.
7/8/2025: mom sent pictures of you with your cousins and it's soooooooo cute. i was talking to her on the phone and you and one of them were holding hands, asking for icecream. aw
4/8/2025: barely been talking to you, you have sm fun. you've been playing w ur cousins a lot, u told me u played on ur ipad together today and that you speak a little english with them. awww
21/7/2025: i've been facetiming you for 30 minutes or something, trying to get you to drink water and eat a little, mom just got you dressed and then you turned around and had to go puke on facetime
20/7/2025: i've been so busy i didnt even think about writing here. yesterday you went on your first holiday to kurdistan, and you went in an airplane ofc, and you were so cute and would say your stomach hurt and that you were nervous. you'd keep calling and almost cried in the airport, telling me about all the snacks you bought. today i called but you're asleep right now. edit: i talked to you a few hours later after writing this, you were cryiiing when you saw me on the phone and you aren't eating anything at all because you're scared of puking :(
28/6/2025: you said you are the best at fortnite out of our brothers and i fully agree, you get average 10 kills every game which is crazy on a nintendo switch
25/6/2025: so cute!! you came home from your last day this summer from football practice, and you got your 2nd medal, and you said you got pizza and fries and you are so happy, so adorable.
17/6/2025: i've been changing your netflix profile picture to a monkey, and ur name to "farting __" because our brothers keep calling u farting L-- and call u a gorilla. i just wanted to see how you'd react and you've been blaming them ofc hahah, and they deny it and say it was probably the other brother. im not gonna admit to it being me, i'll see how long i can keep going for without being accused lol
14/6/2025: you washed your nintendo switch controllers and they dont work LMFAO..... i actually cant believe you. and then i said you could just use the red ones, but you also washed those!?!? :sob: im screaming. you're sobbing. how tf
6/6/2025: i felt bad that you kept listening to 20 second songs on itunes so i downloaded spotify for you, cus i couldnt find a good alternative app for kids. you JUST came into my room to show me another one of your fart remixes of a song, and ure obsessed with the minion remixes too. you're a TERROR, i didnt know i'd pay the price for being a good sister
31/5/2025: you love sabrina carpenter, you're googling about her being in denmark rn.
24/5/2025: you're digging for worms for baby birds, i told u they cant eat em without the mother but ure still going for 1 day now
12/5/2025: we were playing football and were about to go in when i saw a snail on ur boot and u started screaaaaaaaaaming and it was so fucking funny, i tried to calm u down but u couldnt think out of fear and i got ur laces opened and u struggled to kick them off, i couldnt stop laughing. you said you never wanted to see those boots again lmfao
11/5/2025: you were soo cute rn lmao, u kicked ur ball to the neighbours yesterday and today u went over on ur own to ask them to give it back for the first time and u were so happy and proud that u did it alone lol
9/5/2025: you asked me to write a song ab u cus u want to be famous
7/5/2025: you brought a halloween basket out as ur bag which was rly funny, then u were chewing on an eyeball candy that was hella dry for 20 minutes and that shit was so funny
29/4/2025: we were trying out takis really hot ones, and dad was about to eat it when you started to beg him not to because it was strong and his throat would hurt, and you started to sob so he chose not to. then mom asked why you didnt care about her not eating something strong and you yelled that she wasn't old but he was lmfaooooo
26/4/2025: you said ur fave clubs are fck and chelsea.... AND you smashed your big head into my eye
18/4/2025: it's our brother's birthday and u took some jellybeans cus they were meant to be good, but our brothers put in the ones from bean boozled and u ate a bad one and cried. then u came back and ate another one for some reason, and that one also tasted terrible... u kept crying, was so funny
17/4/2025: you lost a bet on wii football with our brothers and u had to eat a jellybean, pear or booger, and u got booger and criiiied. u said u lost cus the tv was broken
14/4/2025: you actually seriously suck at math.
11/4/2025: you came and asked to look at my makeup today, you were so shy and talking with ur baby voice which u do when u want to be cute and get permission, aaand i let u play w my makeup. later: lol, u came to me and asked why its day on rainbow beach (some place in australia) and i told u about timezones and u went :O hahahah
10/4/2025: i gave you a drawing that i made of you today, you had asked me to make one mooonths ago cus u saw a drawing i'd made for our brothers when i was 11 or smth. anyways, mom and dad rly loved it, you were really shy so idk if you liked it or not.... but i think you do :p
5/4/2025: you went out w our brothers to buy snacks and bunch of pokemon cards, and ure upset cus H pulled an expensive card and u didnt get it.
22/3/2025: our brother discovered where you were hiding full on chips bags, pringles, chocolates and everything and it was so funny and you started crying - not cus you felt bad or thought we were mad, but because your 2nd hiding spot had been found lmfao
16/3/2025: GOSH you're SUCH A FUCKING BRAT TODAY!!!!!!! i told u to clean ur table and u didnt want to and then i asked you where your pet insects were, which btw are hella gross but its cute that u like them, guess what.... you took them out of their box - appropriate for insects cus there are holes for them to breathe - and then u put them in ur top model box without access to light or air, and decorated it with plastic furniture. and i told u they cant be there cus they'll die from lack of air and they'll be sad from the dark, and u got mad, and i gave u an ultimatum of putting them back in their previous box or outside. you then put them in their old box, but apparently you had put soap and water in it to clean it and u forgot and accidentally drowned them... you told me you let them go outside after they got wet and you were sobbing :( but me and mom think theyre alive since insects dont die that easily from soap and water
15/3/2025: you're SO annoying rn, we were playing with fimo clay and it was too dry and u were annoyed that mine was better than yours (and what i was making was for you and you knew), i kept telling you how to use the clay but you wasted like half of it cus you couldn't finish any of your projects. and you got rly upset cus you have never held a baby b4
11/3/2025: you wanted a miniature kitchen for 300 dollars so you could cook and i told you no and you started to cry.